Sep 7, 2016
There are times in our life where we feel like we are out of place.
We feel like we don't belong because don't feel like we are smart enough, popular enough, pretty enough, or something else enough.
When this happens to me there is a small part inside my mind that wished the earth would just open up and swallow me whole so I didn't have to be seen.
I recognize the fact that there are times where I feel like I don't belong in any meaningful way...I feel like I'm not smart enough...that i'm not good enough...that I'm not talented enough...that I'm just not enough...when this happens I simply want to disappear...when this happens I don't want to be known anyway...when this happens I wish I didn't have to be there at all...I feel insignificant...I feel scared...I feel like I'm only causing problems...I feel like I'm only a burden...I recognize the fact that when I'm in a situation like this I'm not actually standing out...I'm not actually being noticed...almost everybody present too busy thinking about themselves...is too busy thinking about what is in front of them then to even notice me...what much more important is the fact that I am worthy of being there...that I actually do belong...that actually do have something to contribute...the part of me that is scared remembers those times where I didn't fit in...where I didn't belong...or at least that's how I felt...when we feel like we don't belong we notice proof around us...that shows we don't below...there isn't actual proof...we are just drawing a conclusion that is far from the truth...I give myself permission to know that I am no different than anyone else I am around...I am worthy of being here...I belong to be here...I give myself permission to trust myself...to trust that I can stand tall...to know that I am worthy because I was made worthy...it is something that is intrinsic...it is something that is a part of who I am...even though there is a very young part of me that doesn't believe it to be so...this part is trying to keep me safe from all of the dangerous it sees in the world...I give myself permission to trust myself and to trust what is going on...knowing that I can be seen...knowing that I can be present...knowing that I'm capable of doing this...I give myself permission to trust the process and to trust myself...because there's a part of me that knows I belong…,there's a part of me that knows that I am worthy...there's a part of me that knows I have nothing to prove